What I have come to believe over the past sixty years is summed up in the words of an old song: "You've got to walk that loneome valley, you've got to walk it by yourself."
To me, the truth is that we are all really alone in this existence. People only reach out for others to the extent it benefits them. Our choice is to either individally leave this world a better place without expectation of reward or use up the good left to us by those who came before.
In "Trains, Planes, and Automobiles" John Candy's character had a simple line that I think of during my frequent occasions of peer rejection: "I like me."
22, tell me what you have learned about life and people thru your painful experience. I would imagine you are quite enlightened by now. You may feel isolated, yet I would suggest that the greatest contributors the world has ever known were most often "loners."
In yet another movie: "American Beauty" Lester Burnham narrated at his untimely death that it is hard to be angry when there is so much beauty in the world. He then advised that many would not understand how he could be so appreciative after all he had endured yet closed with the prediction: "but you will."